Wednesday, December 28, 2011(:
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Today is supposingly a fun and happy day. But its all gone.
Supposed to go KBOX with cy, bob and chey.. In the end, cancelled.
Coz all the last min changes, we decided not to go.
And its the saddest day of my life..?
I told him to go out with his mum, and please go... coz im not so important.
And please stop pushing me to go with bob alone.. i dont like it. Seriously.
Everynight, i wished for, is you to webcam with me, coz i really want to see you so so much..
But you keep asking me to play DN with you, i said no. You actually dont know what i want.
So i just give up. Finding you irritating, plus i was angry and sad at that time. I said to throw you away..
But i really didnt mean it, and you didnt reject. Still asked me if I am sure of it. Without hesitation, i said yes.
Friendzoned.
And you went offline after that. You dont really know how much i am hurt by saying all these. You really dont.
Giving me a cold shoulder.
I cried the night. Non-stop. Making up the scenes in my mind of you and me no longer together.
I tweeted how i felt. and i hope you saw it. But you never tweeted anything. Just saw 'no comment -.-'.
By then I realised how much i love you more than you do. Coz i dont know what your reaction.
Sad, angry, happy or can't be bothered? Thinking what i said was joking?
I wanted to know if you cried. So i will know do you love me? Or don't really care about me anymore?
You said I am your first and last girlfriend. I believed. I really hope that you will be my last. Seriously.
Till now, there is still no call or messages from you. It really breaks my heart.
And i never ever cried for someone like this before. Not even my family. But a person with no blood ties with me.
I hope you will understand how i feel. I love you. Alot alot.
Eventually, I lost my namjachingu... just like this.
