Wednesday, December 28, 2011(:
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I love your smile,
hugs,
smell,
our first kiss,
eyes,
the way you hold my hand.
Everything about you makes me happy. Its true.
Whenever i see you, i will feel excited just like what you said to me too.
I thought this will be forever. Yeongwoni..
And now everything is totally gone. Gone. It will not come back.
Even we have been together for 1month plus. I collected alot of memories of us. Happy ones.
But when i think of it, it brings me more pain. When i think of you.
Thanks for adding colours to my life...
Goodbye my love.
I love you.
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Today is supposingly a fun and happy day. But its all gone.
Supposed to go KBOX with cy, bob and chey.. In the end, cancelled.
Coz all the last min changes, we decided not to go.
And its the saddest day of my life..?
I told him to go out with his mum, and please go... coz im not so important.
And please stop pushing me to go with bob alone.. i dont like it. Seriously.
Everynight, i wished for, is you to webcam with me, coz i really want to see you so so much..
But you keep asking me to play DN with you, i said no. You actually dont know what i want.
So i just give up. Finding you irritating, plus i was angry and sad at that time. I said to throw you away..
But i really didnt mean it, and you didnt reject. Still asked me if I am sure of it. Without hesitation, i said yes.
Friendzoned.
And you went offline after that. You dont really know how much i am hurt by saying all these. You really dont.
Giving me a cold shoulder.
I cried the night. Non-stop. Making up the scenes in my mind of you and me no longer together.
I tweeted how i felt. and i hope you saw it. But you never tweeted anything. Just saw 'no comment -.-'.
By then I realised how much i love you more than you do. Coz i dont know what your reaction.
Sad, angry, happy or can't be bothered? Thinking what i said was joking?
I wanted to know if you cried. So i will know do you love me? Or don't really care about me anymore?
You said I am your first and last girlfriend. I believed. I really hope that you will be my last. Seriously.
Till now, there is still no call or messages from you. It really breaks my heart.
And i never ever cried for someone like this before. Not even my family. But a person with no blood ties with me.
I hope you will understand how i feel. I love you. Alot alot.
Eventually, I lost my namjachingu... just like this.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011(:
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Wow! Its been a very long long time since i post! And its going to be 2012 already ><
Its almost been 2 years since i blogged.==
And now i think none of my frens blog anymore coz their blog also quite dead huh
So boreddddd now!!!!
Namjachingu where are you! :'(
